She appeared in my dream a week ago and it ended with a nightmare. Straight after I woke up, I ran and search for her. She’s still by my side. I told my parents about my weird dream. They said I am silly for having such dream! In fact, I think I’m silly as well that time.
Fast forward the incident by a week, I don’t think I am silly anymore. That dream is a reminder for me. A reminder to appreciate her, to care for her and to shower her with more love. A dream a week ago is no longer a dream anymore! It is a fact now! A fact that
I found it hard to believe, because I don’t even know what is the reason behind this.
She left me without giving any notice and that makes me feel very guilty. If I know she’s leaving me, I would never allow that to happen. I will bring her to the doctor and cure all the pain that she suffers silently. It is my fault for not giving enough attention and concern for her.
Human tends to be like that. They will only appreciate things around them when it is no longer with them. The same goes to me. I appreciate her more after she left me. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t appreciate her while she was with me.
I enjoyed and cherished the moment when we were together. Nothing can beat the bonding between us. Though her presence lasted only a few months in my life, it was all filled with fun and excitement.
Goldie, my Star Tortoise, passed away last Saturday. What fails me as an owner is I don’t even know what is the reason behind her death.
When I wanted to feed her that morning, she lies motionless on her bedding. Thinking that she was sleeping, I tried to wake her up by shaking the container.
She remain motionless. When I carry her up and touch her head, no respond from her. Normally, she will ‘manja-manja’ around my fingers.
I rushed to my mum and told her about that. She was shocked as well. It happens so sudden.
I used a white cloth to wrap her before I buried her. Goldie is no longer with me but I will remember her as my first tortoise and the name Goldie will remain with her.
With Love, Jimmy